Poem for a New Friend

Her kindness & understanding embraces my heart, Not knowing where this is an end or a start, Dare I say I’m dedicated to such beauty? Life continues with is & what I see, New thoughts lead to a new experience, I want to do my best with all this, Hope, trust, & faith; so I do what I can, A destiny, the big picture, a universal plan, The skills of a craft; the unknown end, As for now we are good friends, Content with the present moment to be satisfied, Holding back with information, I guess I lied, So, I move from here, one step at a time, With a quiet awareness, I’ll utilize my mind.

Eternal Life Segmented

Can I surface the feelings I have? Can I describe the thoughts I want to say? Putting in the time, in an effort to show my appreciation, to honor her soul & to have dreams for life… This stillness away from her is necessary, it is happening therefore it is required… the realization of a world, illusions to a degree… a vacation within adventure; eternal life segmented, courage to move forward with faith… to destroy the idea I care about her, to protect myself, I project my own isolation… this needs to be a way to separate, hermit style love, wishing with imagination… run the distance, away from her & this dedication; hide from her smile & rebel against her kindness… Grace holds me innocent & the risks have been taken…

Will I need to push further into this unknown? A time for a restful view, or an offense in timing…. Intervention throughout space & matter; moving beyond the usual documentation of life… she reads these words & doesn’t know about them; I keep them safe, scattered, & hidden in the wide open… What clarity deserves a straight forward answer? Tangled in deception to let her down; this form of confusion to care… twisted & melted into forms to remember; holding this moment; letting go of possibility… capable of an act to defend & deceive; giving up on words, until needed for later… the lack of ability to end eternity & the capability of all options…

A Miracle

Right now is not the past, yet moves into the future… I have the right to change my mind… The goals I’ve set, following my heart… compassion for myself & others, understanding being in different frames of mind… Daily increments into time; at peace with it… Currently letting it flow, so I can know… a knowledge, beyond college, life lessons, not taking things too seriously, with trust its all right… Counting blessings, the preciousness of the opportunities… today; a miracle & the mystery of being alive… no one really knows anything other than the present moment…

To start with the first step, life is a long walk, stopping & taking time… To admit that this is a good thing… I may not understand, unless I take a courageous view… The perspective of taking control of my perception… something to do? Is perseverance necessary? Maybe I can affirm I’ll be at peace with it… The waiting feeling is fine? I want it to be…

What do I deserve for my own well-being? maybe my child-like outlook isn’t beneficial… the innocence beyond adult thinking of the world… these dreams, these fantasies of what the world could be like… would she understand? would she still love me? am I capable of letting go of all expectations? I need to make the best of this, even if I don’t understand this world… the body of a man, yet the mind of a child… Is it wrong to think this way? where do I belong? At times I’m scared & I want to cry… what kind of world am I living in?

A Notion

With a deep breath, I confess, my distress… I think its that girl, spin & twirl, slip down, rumors around, knees on the ground; a prayer & a smile… contemplating too many options, in front, hiding, deciding, waving goodbye, fierce memory, intense for me to see… full of wishes & bliss for it; emotion, commotion, & a notion…

Gently trapped, comfortably in chains, integrity leading me away from you… this illusion is not where to put our love… falling into place, a race, into the great beyond, with a soul bond, a partnership, & a wish that I didn’t write this… descriptions will always pollute & corrupt… a true essence, indescribable, & liable…

I haven’t seen them in quite some time, so a rhyme, & another dime that isn’t enough… forsaking this world & everything about it; only glimpses of divinity & hope… only glances of trust & faith… begging for the end of this hate… yet the fight is far from over…

Surrendering to Change

I’m in a place in my life where I need to surrender to change… all the signs & pointers are telling me that it only needs to be done, but has my best interest in mind… To leave the comfort of the past ways of going about life may not be easy, yet the over-riding voice in my mind to do things differently is screaming for change…

Letting go of a habit or a relationship is never easy… As a dreamer, I have hopes that the relationships that I give space & distance are still within my heart… The changes that need to be made may be gradual or not, I’m not sure yet…

Sadly enough there may be life experiences I would want to be better, but labeling them as better than my present moment experience will do me no good… I need to start with where I am & have gratitude that things are the way they are… Hopefully things will get better as I continue to live my life, only God knows what is best for me & my life… I can try to know, but my indecisiveness or belief in something better holds me back… So I try to have trust that there is a power much greater than me, who has my best interest in heart…

Being Removed from the Equation

If I’m a true friend (without ego)… child-like innocence; resilience from thinking with ego rather than spirit, simple movements; gentleness & kindness… Survival? yet from what? The Pain… God help me, I don’t want to cry, I need to hold it together, I will get some rest & feel better… I will try to do something different to be refreshed…

God please help me, I’m serious, I can’t do this without you… Expression of Love, Energy System (symbolic) to choose terminology & give it a different feeling… Trust in others intentions? (regardless of gender) Remove myself from the equation? Perception of how I see things? Original Sin & Competition; Grace of God & Cooperation… A knowing that God has each of our lives set-up for what is best for us…

God please help me, I beg for your peace of mind… we all have “faults” (angles of what is wrong) what is thought of as wrong based on perspective… please be gentle with me, whoever you are… one step at a time Dan, take things easy, slow, & gently… take it beyond time, space, & matter… Be in the “now” (there are no troubles in the present moment, there is nothing there & it is a blessing) Don’t put all my eggs in one basket… Put God first; be flexible, understanding, & able to change…

Trust & Faith

Trust & Faith, yet, negative predictions… restored hope from her kindness… dreams come true? Day to Day struggles & triumphs… Hold the middle ground? Take a chance to have faith & take action? Hoping to net feel & sense loss… A part of life, the Divine is with me, to comfort & embrace with Grace…

A child, a man; innocence… the quest is here & always has been… Love & all the characteristics of it… A place to belong; a home of safety… Part of a unified equation… Give & take; all that is beyond that… Setting the tone, & taking the lead in the dance…

Timing, clock-work, & a moment with her… to withdraw & isolate again… alone my own best friend, yet, life has so much more to offer… the stage, the mask, & the act… Authentic movements based on the heart… Do you understand? Can I trust you? My human nature continues on this path… all the days of my life known… I can’t know, yet somehow God is with me…

Regrets of the notion in what could happen… If I don’t try, I’ll never know… those courageous choices within the mystery… gratitude raising the vibe, surrounding signs point in the desired direction… too much said, when simplicity is the answer… complications of the mind made & projections…

Purpose, Action, & Stillness

Recently, I’ve really been questioning if I’m on track with my purpose, dharma, or plan for my life. It could be a blend of Stillness in planning & being in the right mind-set to make good decisions toward action. The thing about being lost, is if I don’t realize that I am lost, I can’t find a clear path to follow. Of course, taking the required actions during a day is a key, yet it is the variable actions & decisions that require wisdom. Spiritually, this wisdom could be to some how allow something Greater to guide my day.

We all have gifts as to what we can do to reach this place where we blend action & stillness of mind to approach situations in the best way. So, what is the “best” way? Is that a judgment as to one way is better than the other? Maybe at the core of peace, love, & kindness there is no better, & it only when the ego gets involved that we find ourselves comparing. Maybe I have made some impulse decisions recently, I thought at the time it was good to do, so if anything I need to do is to be understanding, gentle, & kind we my past “mistakes”.

As for me, one of the gifts that helps me is to write my thoughts to process what I’m seeking. Often times people tell me to relax & not think so much. This may be true, yet I find it almost to be a part of my personality, so I want to respect & honor it. Although this could be a blessing & a curse, I need to, & want to love myself through this. I think we all want good things for ourselves & others, hopefully by being good to myself, I can be good to others, on a consistent basis.

Present Moment Awareness

What could I do to make this an extraordinary day? Sure, the day to day may seem routine, yet what if I recognize the amazing nature of just being alive? Gratitude comes to mind, with the understanding of thanks for even just being alive… The alternate is waiting, yet I have the opportunity today to experience this life I know…

I know my emotions are indicators of what kind of thoughts I’m having… it’s been observed that a positive thought is 100 times more powerful than a negative thought… there is a time delay from when I think a situation is the way it is… I want to choose good thoughts & affirm that today could just be one of the best days of my life…

This is possible, because it is always the present moment… it is the essence of life… I want to be mindful of thoughts of the past & future, because I feel that the more I’m in the present moment awareness, the more alive I’ll feel… isn’t that what it’s all about?

The default thinking could be considered lazy, yet what if it would be all the more exciting to reach for really good feelings & thoughts about what this day is about? It is almost a challenge at times, but if I want to challenge myself for changing my quality of life for the better, I think that is a worthy challenge…